So here I am, sitting in the Whitman College Library, and I wonder why/how people make the decisions they do. Furthermore, I wonder how chance/luck factors into the decisions that one makes. I want to elaborate on these ideas in terms of 1) dating/relationships and 2) jobs/careers/lifestyles.
For example:
1) dating/relationships.
Prior to the end of last semester, I had a fling of sorts with this girl named Hannah for about a week. Pretty cute, and we really clicked in terms of personality. Pretty outdoorsy (she spent 11 weeks doing trail maintenance this summer), and still kinda girly. i.e., enjoys getting dolled up and going out to parties and whatever. She also sings and plays the guitar, which I think is really dope. Anyways, part way though, Claire comes along, and I immediately drop Hannah and decide to make something happen with Claire. Claire and I have similar interests, but in the end, Claire and I don't last because we never really clicked, and I realize that I made the decision to be with Claire because she was physically more attractive.
The thing is, Claire just seemed to pop out of no where; i.e., sheer coincidence/luck of meeting a pretty, attractive girl. I was like "wow, this is awesome, how did this even happen to me? This girl is awesome." But in the end it just didn't work out. wtf. I wonder why I decided to go for the girl that I found more attractive (Claire) over the girl that I clicked really well with (Hannah). How does that even happen?
At the same time, there's this girl Heather that is probably one of my best friends at Whitman, but I don't really find her that attractive. I spent three hours just hanging out and talking with her, and it went by amazingly fast. But I don't find her that attractive. Why couldn't she just be more attractive?
Will I find the "right" person? And I ask a question, which is more important, physical looks or personality?
2) jobs/careers/lifestyles.
And now here I think about Chris and Dante
Chris first. I wonder how it worked out that he met this really cool/attractive girl named Ali, got along really well with her, and he seemed really happy. That is, luck in terms of relationships worked out really well for him. He just met this girl in physics class, and it just worked. Now he's with Kate, and it seems to work out really well too. So luck in relationships worked out really well.
But now, he just got fucked by a ladder and his knees really hurt... how does that even happen? How can someone do so well in one category of their life (relationships), and then life just comes around and fucks with another category of their life (career/lifestyle). Chris can't really go exploring like had intended, and now he has to sit at home and watch movies.
Why does this happen?
Dante. You're not with Chelsea anymore because you weren't feeling it being so far away from her. This indicates that the dating/relationship realm just isn't working out for you. But then in terms of career/lifestyle, you landed a boss job that actually makes a difference in the world. And this job just came out of nowhere. Cindy just happened to point you somewhere, and somehow, feeling under-qualified, happened to land this job. However, what it really comes down to, is that you're super qualified for this job.
Really, I feel like like Chris and Dante are diametrically opposed. Whereas Chris has relationships working for him, Dante doesn't. However, Dante has lifestyle/career going for him, and Chris doesn't.
How does that happen?
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